thats what you get..

when you let your heart win..
so, i lied. it does hurt, even a smidge. although, maybe that's better because now i know i actually can still feel for someone more then friendship after all. i knew this would happen all along, so it wont last too long i am sure. i wonder, how am i suppose to feel when you're not here. that might take a little getting use to after the amount of time put in.
so take a seat, we're settleing the final score,
& why do we like to hurt so much?

for waking up in vegas..
now, because everyone has gone & left me. back alley drunk fest saturday night seems like the proper way to deal with the last couple of days doings. mhm.
shut up & put your money where your mouth is,
don't call your mother, cause now we're partners in crime.

standing on the rooftops, everybody scream your heart out!

1. Seeing you was actually a lot harder to do then i thought it might be. I was so ready to be mean and horrible, but once it happend i lost all feeling in my tounge and my stomach actually did a flip. Everyone is always saying "oh guess who i saw today.." and i think the reason that i haven't ever seen you until now is because i was looking for you. It's one of those stupid things. When you stop searching you find what you were looking for all along. I'm glad, in this case that i have stopped looking, even if it ended up that i had to see you to get my closure. However knowing i'm going to see you in a month again, i'm not to fond of. I'll suck it up and stick it out for him, because i do love him & miss him dearly and just a chance to see him is amazing.. You however, take your fish and keep it on the other side of the room from me.I want it to be a good time and partially be my day also, for that sake i will act as mature as possible.

2. I miss you. Plain and simple.

3. I'd like to think i'm immune to this game you're playing, or trying to play with me. It's the story of my life, i already know how it's going to end. What i do however find funny is the fact i think i want to play it back at you in hopes that maybe i'll win. Good thing i havent put 100% into hoping it will turn out for the better, i'm all for breaking your heart.. Game on.

i hate that all the feelings i have bottled up right now are all about males. Get a life.